Friday, September 23, 2011


Have you ever been "awakened" by new information, when you're ENTIRE life you've believed something else?

You've spend your whole existence believing one way and all of a get hit with information that goes completely against what you've thought for all this time?

This recently happened to me. 

I've lived my life knowing that there are certain things that I can or cannot do.

Certain things that would or would not effect me.

Certain things that have shaped me.

Certain things that have shaped my life up to this point.

Certain things that have shaped the plans I had for myself...for my future...for the rest of my life.

And in an instant...

in one conversation...

it was all changed!

I don't really know yet what to do with this information!

I mean...

I understand it.

It came from a VERY reliable source.

A person I respect and appreciate and believe has my best interest at heart ALWAYS!

But oh my goodness...

I still don't really know what to do with this informaton!

I've spent so long believing that the path my future was headed on was the best plan...

and it's a good plan!

A great plan!

I have no qualms with continuing down this path...

But now I've been put at a crossroads. 

I have another path I could take.

Is it the best for me?

Is it a better option than the great plan that I already had?

I don't know!!!!!!

It's different...really different.

Chris was shocked too.

So now there are things to think about...

Things we've never thought about before.

Things we've never seriously considered because of where our mindsets were at prior to this coming about.

When I found out I didn't really know what to say.

I was so...shocked, flabberghasted, knocked off  my stable block...whatever you want to call it. 

The expectation of what I thought was a cut and dry issue, was so NOT what was presented to me. 

There's some excitement in it!

I'm not unhappy with having this news.

It's not like I believed one way about it for so long that to be told otherwise made me upset to think I had been lied to for 31 years.

It's good news.

It's great some peoples eyes I'm sure.

But I still don't know quite what to do with it.

There are a lot of questions that still float to the surface of my mind.

There are a lot of things that are unanswered.

There are definitely new experiences that would come from it.

Experiences I never thought I'd be a part of and now I'm realizing I could be.

 I know God never puts us through anything we can't handle. 

He never gives us more than we can carry...

He opens doors that we never thought would open...

I'm not saying I'm "all in" with this possible new path. 

I'm still standing at the fork in the road, holding Chris' hand...waiting to hear what God has to say to us both about which way we should turn.

Left field?  My entire life it's been so far out far out of reach...

and now?

It's not that far from the right!


  1. I'll continue to keep you in my prayers to learn what the best path is for you as far as this information is concerned.

  2. well nibnose that I am I want to know the news! I'm sure you'll make the right decisions. :)